When you need something more

My weekly insight on Run With the Wind is late this week. I’m sorry about that but honestly it gave me a bit of time to think about what I wanted to say.

This episode six focused on King and I think this episode really could speak to a lot of those who are in their college or after college life.

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We are often told that we can do or be whatever we want. Honestly I fall a bit into the dreamer side of the world. I also have a mean realistic streak. King is trying is hardest to interview and find a job after his time in the university. He wants to make money and he doesn’t seem to care what job he gets as long as he gets one.

This is honestly a fact of life. We want to have that security of a job.

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I have pushed aside my dreams for most of my life. Make money writing and selling books? Nah. I needed to find a job to support my “hobby” and that led to me not writing. I like to do things always on the extreme side. All or nothing baby!

Now that I’m at the point where I can find a happy medium between writing and teaching. I’ve noticed that my depression has faded. There are some days where writing still gets cut out but I’m working to make it a priority. Writing isn’t easy and it is funny that I can find happiness in something that can be so frustrating.

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Because seeing the reason that King decided to run really ran a bit true. He needed something else in his life. Running will help him handle the stress of the job and the job hunt. It is something to do that brings joy and a release of stress.

Now, I can argue the fact that running wasn’t really his own choice. However, it is a nice statement that we really need to have something in our lives that gives us happiness.

We can get wrapped up in our jobs and day to day stresses. Those thing never really go away. If you are in a job that is your dream hold onto that sucker until the day you die. I can hope that one day my my books will support me enough but until then I can enjoy the moments where I can set aside time to write. It is a frustrating wonderful thing, writing, but it really is fulfilling.

Now for your weekly prince update….

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Hang in there Prince!

Happy Watching!

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Running Together

We are back again to see the weekly tribulations of Prince.

At least he had a cute dog as a running partner now. He still runs like I would run, but as of last week he can now pass a butterfly. Progress.

To be fair dogs really are understanding.

Most of the forced teammates are now on board. The lawyer is still holding out and mostly just complaining but he is still running. King is the one who we got to see a bit more development from this week. I can understand the pressure he is under in trying to find a job after the university.

We can see the tension from him as it looks like he is going to job fairs and getting rejections from jobs. I have a idea that the next episode will focus on his explosion that happened towards the end of the episode.

After all he is right. He can’t just shift everything around for running. King has his own future goals for a career and I don’t think he should have to give that up to run.

So I’m happy to see that we are getting to know more about the other characters and it is done in really small moments that can connect well to an audience. All the while they are trying to get better at running.

Good Luck Prince!

Happy Watching!

A year with a bowl of Kimchi

This is a strange date for me since Kimchisama wasn’t my first wordpress account. In wordpress years I’m a bit older but in Kimchi years I just turned one.

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So welcome to a year in a life of me!

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It is interesting to look back on my year. When I first started this blog I did it for my creative writing II students. I had them make a blog and I made one along with them. Mostly to help them with any pitfalls along the way. Then I found amazing people and you all got stuck with me…

Anime Review

My first post haha and good old Future Diary became the very first anime I talked about. Wow have things changed and got a lot more random…

I noticed I started to focus my blog posts more on character. This is something that I’ve cared about with writing and since I don’t think I’m great with reviews I’ve enjoyed pointing out certain strengths and weaknesses in character development.

A Father’s LoveA Father’s Love

Obsession

Do Sunglasses Count?

A Debt Paid

These were a bit about character but my favorites will always be the ones where I mentioned each Yona of the Dawn characters. I had such a fun time writing about them and all their unique personalities!

Growing up – Fighting Back- A Badass Woman

The warmth in silence

Responsibility – Duty – Honor

I will take my freedom

“What a pain!”

I removed my heart.

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Man that was fun and I almost want to do it with another anime. Hmmm.

So this blog journey has been great. I’ve gotten to interact with so many different people online and found a truly supportive group of people. Part of me wishes that I was better at making connections through messenger but also I’m a bit of a weirdo…

My blog post that had the most views was

Thank You Followers/My Reasons Why Award

This really warms my heart and I find myself going though some of your posts and holding tightly to your reasons. Your reasons for living helped me in more ways that you will ever know. The honestly and rawness would always bring tears to my eyes and sometimes I didn’t even know what to say but thank you in my comments.

I still thank you. I’m thankful for you. Even though I am not the best updater or writer or commenter your warmth reaches me on a daily bases.

Thank you.

So my blog has taken me on quite a journey. I’m hoping to be a bit better about posting an maybe posting things that are more meaningful but you know we need to see abs every once in a while… right :D.

Personal goals

In the year where I almost took my life I finally started to reach out towards something I almost gave up on. My writing.

It has been a journey.

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This comic from Sarah Scribbles really sums up my life with reaching my goal to be published.

In the year 2017 it was a fight to sit down and write word after word that I thought sucked. I had to force my butt into the chair and some days getting 100 words was an act of God.

I wanted to give up. I wanted to just sit and watch TV again. I wanted to drown myself in junk food and depression.

But I had small beams of light around me support from other writers, friends, family and online. In December 2016 I finished my first book.

There was no feeling like it in the world. “The writer who didn’t write.” That is what I called myself for the last 10 years and here I was looking at something I finished. Was it pretty… eh? Do I need to hire a good editor? YES. haha but it was done.

Now that I knew I could write a book in a year nothing was stopping me. I knew I could finish. So I wrote book two! I finished it in less than six months. I couldn’t believe it. I now had two urban fantasy books done.

For these first two books I hand wrote them both. Now that may seem a bit insane, but it helped me focus on getting the ugly words out without trying to stop and make everything perfect. So I wrote, scribbled but didn’t back down. Then when I typed them all out I would edit and revise.

Now for book three I thought I could get a lot more done if I didn’t hand write it. So I started this new YA fantasy (inspired by Japanese and Korean culture) and I typed it. I started it in September and even though I had two- three weeks of not writing I’m going to hit my midpoint at the end of this month.

I’m planning to finish the first draft by the end of November. Three months.

First book: one year

Second book: six month

Third book: 3-4 months

I included editing time but not beta read time.

I’m still querying and pitching my books to agents, but I’m also saving up money to self publish. If it all goes well be on the look out for three urban fantasy in 2020!!

Now it feels weird to look back on my journey of personal goals and dreams. Writing is now a part of my life. Something I always wanted but never achieved until now. It is just always there every night when I sit down to write 2,000 words.

It is something that is there, even though things in my life aren’t going great but having a goal… Life changing.

This really comes back to My Reasons Why. To your reasons why. When you have those goals those things that keep you going they make all the difference.

I hope you take the challenge to make them a part of your life. Never feel guilty for doing something you love and than brings you joy. This is how we take care of ourselves.

I hope I get to grow in the next year with you all. Thank you for putting up with my rambles and pictures of abs.

Thank you for being you and I believe in you. Always.

Happy Watching :).

The sound of the bow

Sometimes you look forward to something so much that you are disappointed when you finally see it.

Well in my mind Tsurune delivered on my expectations.

First off I know this may seem a bit silly but I’m writing a ya fantasy right now and the main weapon is a long bow like the one they use in Tsurune. So now I can double my research for my blog and my book. WIN!

Second I’ve become a full blow sports anime fan and when I see interesting characters and a sport that I don’t know much about I really now am interested.

I want to learn about sports.

Whoa…

Who am I?

Sports anime really has a way to make even the smallest rule exciting. I guess they need to make and anime about going to the dentist or something.

What really made me excited is the start of a conflict from the very beginning between Minato and Takehaya. You get the impression that they were friends at one point. Minato isn’t openly hostile but you can tell that he really doesn’t want to talk to his old friend.

They meet on the opening day of their new high school and right away they are recruiting to revive the school archery club. This premise really isn’t new in sports anime but honestly it is the characters that really always sell it to me.

They are all different and from the start their personalities really shine.

You know and can relate to what Minato is going through. I think when you have suffered trauma it is always the things we love that struggle. Through this we want to see him be successful with something he loves and I’m looking forward to watching him grow and hopefully overcome his pain.

My favorite character so far is the guy with the sour face Kaito.

I really relate to him on a personal level.

And I really never say this in any of my blogs because it sometimes just adds to the emotion and I never think of it but the music… It was stunning. The simple notes played out while Minato when home and was alone. While he road his bike… I can’t really do it justice but I really am a fan of the score so far.

And…

Look what I found…

Mhmm Beautiful draw there…

The owl is judging me.

In the end I’m really excited about this show and I hope it continues with making the characters and their personal conflicts engaging. This has topped my list so far with new anime this fall and I hope you give it a chance!

Happy Watching!

Still Creeped out from Puppets? Check.

I don’t really watch scary shows. But what someone else finds scary and I what I find scary will differ. If it will keep me up at night I give it a wide birth. I tend to stay away from things that involve ghosts or spirits. Also in anime I have always found dolls to be super creepy (I blame Another). So it is really wise for me to watch a show that is full of puppets…

They really creep me out.

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Hello nightmare my old friend

There is something about the dead eyes and how they walk in jerky movements. So this first episode of Karakuri Circus had enough to creep me out and I don’t even know if I’m supposed to be scared.

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Sorry grandson you will be forever alone. But you’ll have a puppet room…

Apparently all men in Saiga house have a room like that ^^. That is a clear sign for a lady to make a run for it. “Sorry I don’t date men with a creepy puppet room. Bye.” (let’s play a game and see how many times I use the word creepy. How else do you describe puppets?)

Despite me rambling on about creepiness this is an interesting show. It has a lot of things going for it despite a super confusing first episode.

This may be where the manga readers get mad at me for not understanding something. I think the main problem is they are trying to make us care but we really have no set up to why we should care.

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It starts out with a bunch of people getting killed. We don’t really know why. Then cut to a man in a bear suit trying to get people to go to the circus.

Okay so we’ve moved on from the murders I guess. I don’t know if these were in the future or the past of the show.

A young boy Masaru approaches the man in the bear suit and wonders if he will take him to the circus.

I mean… Kids don’t go up to strangers…

Now suddenly bear guy(Narumi) is trying to protect Masaru from a hoard of creepy puppets. Talk about getting yourself in too deep for a complete strange child.

My main problem is why is this guy suddenly facing death to save a boy? I mean we really don’t know anything about his character but that seems a bit intense to try and risk your life for this kid. I guess if I was ever in trouble I would want to meet him on the street.

Narumi finds out from the kid that he needs to get Shirogane. He has not clue where she is at but she is at a circus. Could be any circus.

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This was information shared to him by his grandpa in the creepy puppet room. They are going to find this person and you would assume once that happens Narumi would go back to his life.

Nope.

At the end he is decided to help out this kid. Again, I don’t get his character or motivation. Honestly if he wasn’t in the first episode it would have made it a lot better. I know since he seems to be a main character he can’t just be cut. I really want to know what kind of life he has that he can just get up, drop everything,  and go to protect a stranger.

Who can just drop everything like that? I guess he dressed up as a bear for a living so there isn’t a career he’s missing out on. (I’m sorry if that is your occupation I don’t mean to say that what you do isn’t important.)

The things I ended up liking about this anime are… the creepy puppets haha. Oh irony.

The show started to pick up for me when Shirogane used the puppet Arlequin to fight off the men in black puppets.

The used of the strings and the fight were pretty interesting and honestly it was enough to make me stick around for episode two.

I’m hoping that this is just a case of trying to shove too much into one episode. Where they couldn’t properly set up any motivation for the side characters. You really don’t want the last five minutes to be the only good part of a first episode. I have a feeling they would lose a lot of watchers.

Because I want to care about the kid and the bear man but I really don’t. I do find the “magic” interesting and that is the only reason I will watch another episode.

This one is honestly closest to my drop list at this point but maybe things will get fleshed out in another episode.

And don’t worry that totally isn’t a puppet standing behind you in a dark room. Oh sleep…

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Happy watching!

 

Run like the butterfly

We all know it is bad to manipulate someone into doing something they don’t want to do. Well at least we should know. What you do in your personal time is up to you…

I feel a bit bad that I’m finding these poor characters pain a bit funny?

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I mean I really relate to them on a personal level since I myself have been trying to be healthy and I did a heated Pilates challenge this summer. I myself was passed out on the floor more times that I can mention. I can feel their pain but I was the one who put myself through it. These guys got stuck or bribed into physical activity.

I mean at this point I don’t feel as sorry for them, but I relate on a personal level with book guy/prince.

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Watching him run as a butterfly out paces him really cracked me up. I’m sorry prince, you need to find a new home for all your books since I’m starting to worry that you might die…

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I mean we’ve all been there right? Face challenges that were put in front of us that we had no control over. I get that what Haiji is doing is pretty sh**** but as the prince is forced out of his comfort zone he is doing his best and not giving up.

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We don’t know why this poor boy was added to the team. He is in the worse shape and there is no way that he will help his team win in any way. Although Haiji seems strangely confident in the prince. I want to see what is hidden inside and see the prince grow past this challenge.

As long as he is still alive in the end.

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Like I said I can really relate to his struggle. Maybe I’m taking this sports anime too personal but I want prince to succeed with running. I want him to accomplish something that he never thought was possible. I mean isn’t that what life is? Meeting the challenge and coming out on top?

You got this Prince! I will be right behind you!

Happy watching!

When you find home

In a relationship there is something beautiful when two people can find comfort with each other.

It can tend to be something that is still filled with pain but it is from the pathways that they were forced to take.

In watching Banana Fish it really does leave an ache in my heart from week to week. I want to see the small child that lives in Ash feel safe and rested for once. He is trained to survive and he is brilliant. All his traits from his brain to his looks were honed to be used by a man that sees people a mere play things.

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You see his want for something normal and safe but also his desire for revenge leads him down a darker path.

So when Eiji, who really does seem to be a bit boring, comes into his life, as a viewer you have to wonder… How does someone who is as dynamic as Ash find anything interesting in the quiet stable Eiji?

Maybe that question does answer itself. Eiji is the complete opposite of Ash. He doesn’t have the past trauma of rape, abuse, and being involved in the mafia. Ash needs someone who is from the outside. Someone who sees who he really is on the inside.

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Then the fragility of finding someone who you feel safe with. Someone you can feel like your age with. Then the fear of having them see what you have become. Ash begins to cling and push Eiji away from him.

He does this saying that he wants to keep Eiji safe. He is decided himself what is best for Eiji even though on many occasions Eiji chooses to stay by Ash’s side.

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There is something that lives in Ash that wants to be free. Free to stay and keep Eiji by his side. You see him constantly looking out of windows. He is never flying free and he is always looking out on a world that he wants to be a part of. Ash still feels caged by the mafia and his past. He doesn’t know how to escape it.

So Eiji gets hurt at being pushed away but he keeps coming after Ash.

Ash keeps trying to protect Eiji from what he has become.

Also I think there is a part of Ash that he believes at this point he doesn’t deserve to feel safe with Eiji. He doesn’t deserve to get a home that keeps him rested. Ash at this point in the anime is in full destructive mode and he really doesn’t plan on coming out alive.

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But he can’t die yet. He has a hand that is reaching out to him, time after time. A hand pulling him back telling him that he can be safe.

I don’t know what will happen to these two souls that found each other. At the most I can hope that they find peace with each other. But I don’t know if this story has a happy ending in mind. I guess I just have to keep watching and hoping.