When you find home

In a relationship there is something beautiful when two people can find comfort with each other.

It can tend to be something that is still filled with pain but it is from the pathways that they were forced to take.

In watching Banana Fish it really does leave an ache in my heart from week to week. I want to see the small child that lives in Ash feel safe and rested for once. He is trained to survive and he is brilliant. All his traits from his brain to his looks were honed to be used by a man that sees people a mere play things.


You see his want for something normal and safe but also his desire for revenge leads him down a darker path.

So when Eiji, who really does seem to be a bit boring, comes into his life, as a viewer you have to wonder… How does someone who is as dynamic as Ash find anything interesting in the quiet stable Eiji?

Maybe that question does answer itself. Eiji is the complete opposite of Ash. He doesn’t have the past trauma of rape, abuse, and being involved in the mafia. Ash needs someone who is from the outside. Someone who sees who he really is on the inside.


Then the fragility of finding someone who you feel safe with. Someone you can feel like your age with. Then the fear of having them see what you have become. Ash begins to cling and push Eiji away from him.

He does this saying that he wants to keep Eiji safe. He is decided himself what is best for Eiji even though on many occasions Eiji chooses to stay by Ash’s side.



There is something that lives in Ash that wants to be free. Free to stay and keep Eiji by his side. You see him constantly looking out of windows. He is never flying free and he is always looking out on a world that he wants to be a part of. Ash still feels caged by the mafia and his past. He doesn’t know how to escape it.

So Eiji gets hurt at being pushed away but he keeps coming after Ash.

Ash keeps trying to protect Eiji from what he has become.

Also I think there is a part of Ash that he believes at this point he doesn’t deserve to feel safe with Eiji. He doesn’t deserve to get a home that keeps him rested. Ash at this point in the anime is in full destructive mode and he really doesn’t plan on coming out alive.



But he can’t die yet. He has a hand that is reaching out to him, time after time. A hand pulling him back telling him that he can be safe.

I don’t know what will happen to these two souls that found each other. At the most I can hope that they find peace with each other. But I don’t know if this story has a happy ending in mind. I guess I just have to keep watching and hoping.




Kimchi and the SCIENCE behind picking an anime!!!

So how about that spring season? Well, it turns out I ended up dropping quit a few anime. I’m glad to be back just as summer starts and I wanted to talk about my super scientific way of selecting which anime I watch…


Well that was a short post.

Ha! Oh I promise I’m not that shallow…

Step 1: It all starts with the picture and a summary


The truth of the matter is that we will always judge a book by its cover. As I scroll through crunchyroll, hulu, VRV, and Amazon Prime the first thing that will catch my interest is the picture.

As I saw Phantom in the Twilight I didn’t really stop but I took a closer look. “Oh there are three hot guys…” (Okay I am just shallow the end) That made me pause. Would this be something like Libra of Nil Admirari where yeah the guys where good looking but there is not plot? So the picture does draw me in then I read the summary.

Hmmm inhuman shadows, fear, guardians, London, and whoa… a cafe? (who can say no to a cafe? *snort)

So at this point I’m intrigued. This one has made the queue.

Automatic pictures that I will pass and not even read the summary… One guy surrounded by boobs. I’m sorry it is just not my thing…

Step 2:  Is this something I heard of before?


When it comes to anime we all have to admit that there are a lot of stories that are the same. Things that will happen in almost every show, but it sometimes is how those stories are told is what makes them fun.

For Cells at Work it is something I added to my queue right away. I don’t really like science (so great title Kimchi) but this is something that seemed to be pretty unique and I was always a fan of when the magic school bus went inside the body.

I mean now that I’m learning science and stuff I feel pretty smart…

Step 3: Title

Sometimes there are titles where I don’t even know what they mean, but if it has a fun title sometimes I won’t even read the summary but I will just add it to my list right away.


This was mentioned on a blog post (I believe Plyasm correct me if I’m wrong) and I was so excited to watch it!

Then I thought oh this is another yaoi? Okay. Still watching since I don’t turn down BL ha.

I was waiting and waiting for it on crunchy and it never came. Then the Gods of Amazon showed it to me (It is really hard to find new anime on Amazon. It is like they hide it on purpose or something). I was so excited!

I was not expecting this.


Oh this goes beyond your basic BL anime everyone. So far I love it. The plot is interesting, they reference J. D. Salinger which is super cool how they got the name.

I am looking forward to these characters so much and they have shown me complexities already that I’m super excited about. Good on you title for being awesome and I hope you all check it out. This is going to be your grittier anime that deals with tough themes. I will probably need to get the manga after watching.

I’m also excited that they are doing 24 episode apparently. My husband was not excited when I screamed, “NOOOOOO!” at the end of episode two because I didn’t want to wait another week for the next episode.

I am going to say this right now. This may be my top pick for Summer.

Step four: Genre

There are some genres that I will always add to my queue right away.

Comedy, Physiological Thriller, Romance, and Abs (totally a genre)


I love watching a darker anime. I can’t watch a lot of them at once so they need to be broken up with other types of anime. They are usually my favorite and it probably is the fault of Psycho Pass and Death Note.

So Angels of Death really fit the bill and My Sugar Life. I’m waiting to see how they both turn out. So far My Sugar Life is kicking Angels is the darkness battle. Eek.

In the end they are always auto adds but a lot of the time I don’t end up finishing them if the plot sucks.

Step five: You

I have gotten word of so many anime from you all that I would have missed otherwise (So my science isn’t perfect? dang). I love seeing your reviews and then reading them from those I trust. Sometimes I just want to watch a garbage anime with you all and then I get to enjoy your rage posts haha!

In the end if I passed over something because it had a bad summary or a stupid picture. I can always count on you to get me to the good stuff ;).

Story wins over all

So even if the anime made is past my super scientific method of picking it… If it doesn’t have a good story… Well…


In the end my methods will fail over and over again, but I’m glad you all are here to be along for the ride.

Happy Watching!