A Redemption Story

I finally got an opportunity to watch “A Silent Voice” (Koe no Katachi) and I can see why it was one of the top anime movies last year. In anime there are many themes of bullying and I think this is helping to bring a bit of awareness to what goes on in school and the little that is often done to stop it. I’ve mentioned these things before in my post about the anime March Comes in like a Lion. In that anime and this movie little is done to stop the bullying.

In this movie the main character Ishida is a young boy at the start. He seems a bit like the devil may care type and the ring leader of his small group of friends. Then one day a new student is introduced.


Nishimiya is deaf and she wears a hearing aid. She mostly communicates with her notebook and the students are understanding at first but slowly that turns in to resentment. They don’t want to help her and nothing is done in class to make her life any easier which is extremely sad. One teacher tries to have the students learn sign language to communicate and only one student offers to learn. When that student leaves Nishimiya is bullied to the extreme and also the students destroy her hearing aids multiple times.



When the principal finally confronts the class they all point fingers at Ishida. In typical mob fashion he now becomes the one getting bullied. This goes on through grades school and in middles school some of his old friends point him out at a bully (ironic huh?) and they continues to ignore him. He is isolated.

At the start of the movie we see him wrapping up the last bits of his life and getting ready to kill himself.




Instead he stops himself and goes to see the one that he bullied in grade school. Thus his redemption story begins.

Now at this point Nishimiya is a bigger person than I could ever be. If I ran into a bully I probably would not be so kind. Her character however, is one that will always blame herself for anything bad happening to others. She is always apologizing and believes she ruins everything. She is forgiving and they build a tentative friendship.

It is hard for me to feel sympathy for bullies this movie does a great job building up Ishida’s character. He rather take on the isolation and believes that he deserves it all after what he did to Nishimiya. I guess part of me would have to agree with him. He gets to the point where he can’t look at anyone face and the movies visuals show giant X’s over everyone face and their voices are muted to him.


We can see his regret and we see the situation that he puts himself in to do penance for what he did. He took on all the blame for what everyone did to her in grade school. He shows remorse and tries in his own way to make Nishimiya happy.

This next bit will have spoilers so if you haven’t watched the movie you may want to stop reading.

In this movie it starts out with him wanting to kill himself. He is isolated and alone. He pays back the money to his mother and cleans his room. Then bringing Nishimiya into his life stopped him. In this whole journey I don’t think he realized her true feelings and how she views herself as a burden to everyone.

The small group of friends that the built is destroyed after the bullying is brought up again. I’m annoyed at the character Kawai and how she never admits to her part in what was done to Nishimiya. There is never any redemption for the other bullies and one of them didn’t even change and everyone seemed okay with it? That part was a bit hard to swallow. So when this small group that came together fell apart Nishimiya takes the blame on herself.




Ishida finds her getting ready to jump off the balcony of her high rise. Her story of feeling useless and a burden didn’t really shine through to me until this moment. As I was watching Ishida grow I wasn’t seeing her destruction.

As much as she had a loving family and support she kept apologizing for everything that went wrong. She just got to the point where she tried to fix things by dying.

In the end the friendships they made will never be fixed if someone leaves the world. Sometimes when you are depressed you don’t see that. You only see yourself as the problem and that the world will be better off if you are not in it.

That is never true. The world will always be less without you.



The characters in this movie find the strength to come together again and support each other. I’ve heard that the side characters are fleshed out more in the manga but I’m glad that their was a main focus to this movie. There wasn’t enough time but the message is clear about seeing the value in others.

I hope you get a chance to watch this movie. I hope that you know that you are someone important. This isn’t just a nice message for a movie but to take with you in life. If you ever need someone to talk to send me a message and if you ever think that the world is better without you I hope you reconsider. I’m including a link for the suicide prevention hotline and I hope if the person you want to talk to isn’t free that you call or text them. They are there 24/7.

To borrow words from Mr. Rogers at this point… I’m not trying to be cheesy since I honestly believe what he says, “There’s just one person in the whole world like you, and people can like you just the way you are.”

Happy watching!



Why am I alone?

Thanks to a wonderful review by Irina on her blog I watched the hilarious anime Watamote yesterday. Now, I guess the title can be confused with the term hilarious. This anime has wonderful notes of humor that directly relate to social anxiety and just the plain awkwardness of puberty. However, there are some pointed notes of the characters loneliness and confusion on why people don’t like her even though the audience may understand, the mc believes in her unique charms.

I took a lot of screenshots while I watched. I noticed after I finished with the last episode the moments I picked were mostly focused on the quiet times in the anime. The times where she began to doubt her wonderfulness and felt the keen loneliness of not having friends around her. It is easy to see myself in this character when I grew up I had a small handful of friends (who I am very thankful for) but there was always that need to feel “popular” to be the one that everybody liked since I believed myself to be a good person. I think I was lucky in the fact that I wasn’t a target for bullies. The only time I was was bullied was by people who didn’t even go to my school. (That is a story for a different day). This character isn’t bullied she isn’t made fun of she is just merely left alone.

In a way that can be just as saddening as being picked on. It is like she doesn’t exist to her classmates. I honestly really like the fact that she isn’t bullied and the classmates are not seen as the villain. In a matter of speaking the main character is the one who gets in her own way half the time. She comes up with these crazy plots to make people or boys notice her and they backfire in strange ways. Half the time she can’t even talk which over the course of the anime shows how crippling her social anxiety really is and you watch and you just want her to “SAY SOMETHING!” But she can’t it isn’t something you can just get over.

Time and time again she tries to get people to realize how wonderful she is but in the end she goes back to her room and plays otome games. That is the only way she can have that human and sexual interaction that she desires.

Also there are so many references to anime and otome games it is pretty fun to see if you can spot them all. Being and English Literature major I enjoyed this one a whole bunch.

There are some golden humorous moments with her parents during these times of her sexual awakening. One with her father that involved a personal massager and a BL otome game and one with a recording and her mother.

Kudos to the parents for just acting normal. I think that is a great moment of showing those lovely years where our parents don’t understand us, but then they still love us. The way the creators us the pauses for humor is on point and it gives laughter to a lot of moments that could be considered very sad. I think this is an anime that does very well with dealing with the tragic things of being lonely but adding in humor. In my mind it doesn’t make fun of her, but I think if it just focused on her loneliness it would be a very hard anime to watch.

These two image are from one of the moments that really begin to show her isolation. She wants to form a club and be with people in the first image it shows this dream happening. There are two other students who joined her club and they are having a peaceful moment just being together. Then after the song is over you see that she was having tea with her two stuffed toys all along. The club was never formed and she is still alone.

The sadness from her isolation shows up more and more towards the end of the anime. Now when I watched I really wanted for her to find that awkward friend that she could be with but I don’t think that this will be that kind of anime.

Given a choice she will always choose to be on her own. She finds these safe places where she feels at home and clings to them. It is hard for her to talk and meet new people. So when we see the funny. Moments of this anime we also get those moments that we can relate to as an introvert or a person with social anxiety. Some will never understand why we can just go and “make friends” it is never that easy. When we do step out of our comfort zone we have one thought in our minds…

I hope to see a season two for this anime. I hope to see some of her growth and still have the humor shine through. This was a great balance and if you had those awkward teenage years this will be very relatable… maybe more so for women, but I think most will enjoy this anime.

Sometimes I think that while we live and grow we have a habit of hoping that things will just happen to us. That change will be easy. We need to go out and do things ourselves and build those relationships with those close to us instead of hoping to be popular.

I wanted to end this post with a challenge. The way the mc is alone all the time really spoke to my heart. I know what it is like then and now to sit, eat, and be alone. It isn’t easy. So maybe this week if you see someone who is alone say hello, smile at them, maybe sit next to them if you know them. I’m not saying go forth and harass people, but there are those out there who go days without any meaningful human interaction. In this anime for a long time the only person who talked the the mc was the teacher who said goodbye to her at the end of the day. That moment meant something to her and trust me… coming from someone who is alone a lot… A hello can mean the world to someone. I’m going to do my best this week and I hope you all will reach out too.

Happy watching!

ABP Discussions – Another | Discussing Anime as Ladies and Gentleman

Took part in a facebook group discussion this week! Feel free to leave your own comments about Another.

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Hi guys and welcome to my place! 🙂

Today I bring you a new feature that we started in the Anime Blogging Party happening in Facebook! If you want to join us come here!

What is the idea then? Well, basically each week a person of the group (who wanted to participate) will be randomly picked and they will choose an Anime. Everyone there then gives their thoughts in the comments. At the end of the week the discussion is ended and who wants to do it can feature the discussion in their own blog! 🙂 (Not obligatory though, don’t want to impose work to anyone xD).


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The purpose of playing

Okay, there are a few otome games out there I like and I’ve always had a soft spot in my heart for Cheritz games starting with “Nameless” and “Dandelion Wishes” I didn’t enjoy Dandelion as much as Nameless but when they came out with Mystic Messenger I enjoyed the routes and out they divided out the play time so much! (you can tell a lot of the characters are the same haha Okay I don’t play to analyze  characters and if you really like a character it is kind of nice to “see” them again).

So first, why do I play otome games? The romance of the story. The feeling of me getting to be in the game. I don’t really play for the other side plots. I guess they all have the mysterious thing happening in the background but I play to get the happy ending and have a sweet romantic conclusion.

In Nameless I really enjoyed all the endings (and some of the bad endings too haha!) and it was satisfying.

When I first played Mystic Messenger I really liked all the characters (except Yoosung sorry he was just too babyish for me) and the endings made sense and the after endings were very sweet. The best routes for me were Jumin and 707 and I see on many posts that they are generally the favorite. 707 is the final route and you see the whole story and all the background of mint eye and you get the whole plot, but if you are like me… I just care about the romance haha!


After playing other otome games I really missed Mystic Messenger I think they do things very well and I enjoyed the game play and waiting for the chats. So you can imagine my excitement when they came out with two new routes! V and Ray.




Okay, I don’t know what I was expecting… V’s route is disappointing. Mystic Messenger deals with a lot of mental issues of depression and suicide. Okay, that is completely fine, and I appreciate it when those themes are handled well. However, I don’t play otome games to be a councilor and a mean person to people who have mental issues.

I don’t enjoy being mean to Ray so I can get with V. I don’t enjoy the ending to V’s route since the MC turned into this “warm” person who apparently just lets two people go off in their mental trauma and does nothing to stop it. How in the F*** is that a good ending? Oh he goes off after two years after *MAJOR SPOILER* and people kill themselves. How the heck is that a good ending? “Oh a mentally ill person committed suicide but we all can be happy now.” Ugh. And HE GOES AWAY FOR TWO YEARS WITHOUT TALKING TO THE MC AND JUST COMES BACK AND SHE IS WAITING FOR HIM? WTF!!!!

Then in the end all we get is a picture of V’s face. No kiss. Okay am I acting like a spoiled kid? I think in the good endings you expect something…. kissing? allusions  to love making? a strong partnership? I don’t know. I was disappointed. I’m sad I spent 11 days being mean to people who needed professional help and then the ending sucked. I don’t even know if I want to play Ray’s route now. I’m just disappointed.

I may have to go back and play 707’s route to wash  my brain.8553132983e5b55355d2d566697b6495

Does anyone have a good otome game they like to play? I need something good since I don’t know if I can handle another route where I have to be a jerk to everyone and then get a unsatisfying end. I still want to like myself when I’m done playing! Anyway, happy watching or playing! Hope you enjoyed it more than I did…


The beating heart of a creative

It has been hard to think of a anime to write about this past month. I haven’t had a chance to finish anything that excited or angered me enough to write a post about. However, I did attend a writing conference the first week of February that has left my heart full. It came at the right time in my life. The encouragement of other creatives. They know the struggle and there is nothing more powerful than not feeling alone.


I have had to shoulder a lot of responsibilities in this last month.

It is up to me to make the choices to keep going. On that day in December of 2016 I made the choice to live and since then it has never been easy, but I never looked back to the moment that I wanted to end my life again.

Writing has become a stronghold in my life and rejections aren’t what they used to be for me. I get rejected and I move on, yes it would be nice to be published but it isn’t the end anymore because I’m creating. I’m living.

I have something that brings me joy and purpose. I hope that that there is something in your life that gives you that joy. I hope that you don’t sell yourself short and try to downplay your awesomeness because you have doubt. Don’t believe the lies that tell you that you aren’t good enough. At the writing conference I got to listen to Brandon Sanderson speak. He likes to say he is an “overnight success ten years in the making” the one thing that really stood out to me is that he came to the point where nothing was getting published, but he was okay with it. If he died with 90 manuscripts in his closet he would be happy because he was doing what he loved.

That is a powerful thought to have when you are creating something but you aren’t making money from it. Who is it for? Yes, we would all love to get paid for the things we create and sometimes the process is long, hard, and lonely. In the end, are you happy that you get a chance to create? Can you wait to be that “overnight success”?

I’m in the process of trying to get published. Maybe this book won’t be the first one that gets published. Maybe I get published and only sell 10 copies to my family. I’m not afraid anymore. I’m not afraid to get rejected or fail. Because ten years of not trying felt worse than the form rejection emails. Writing is now a part of my life. I’m not just talking about the book idea I have… I have a finished book! I’m not just sitting around trying to sell this book… I’m writing the next one! Because who knows if I will ever get books signings, convention panels, or movie deals. I may just have 90 unpublished manuscripts in my closet when I die, but you know what? I’ll take it.


I hope you quiet that voice in your head that tells you that you aren’t good enough or that compares you to another creative. The only one who that can write your story is you. Keep creating, keep living, and keep your joy alive.


Continue, Don’t Quit : You Are Not in This Alone

Sometimes in life you feel like the troubles are too much to handle. Please read these wise words from Auri. Reach out. You are not alone.

Manga Toritsukareru Koto

Some days, as you wake up, you wonder what the point of this is. This whole talking, eating, sleeping.

This living.

What was the point of it, when you felt like you were watching another person’s life and yet felt so much pain? As if you weren’t meant to exist? As if… anything you touched became a disaster?
Was there even a point to begin with?

Every day, you have a heavy secret in your heart. One that grows heavier with every person you don’t tell it to. That weighs you down more and more as you think it but don’t say it out loud.
Until it gets so heavy, so LOUD, that you can’t believe that it’s only three words. Three simple words to think, but three very difficult words to feel.
And so, again and again, you think it, but you don’t speak it. You can’t say it.

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Cause it’s cute?

I’ll be the first to admit I like sparkly and cute things, yeah I know… My bag has mermaid sequins and I’m in love. However, I don’t really watch anime “because it’s cute” I tend to like some sort of story line and a bit of a deeper thrill or a sweet romance.

“How to Keep a Mummy” is only 2 episodes in and much to my chagrin I’m enjoying it. Gosh it is just… so… dang… cute.


The main character Sora gets sent a mummy from his father. Apparently his father sends horrible gifts that try to kill him. So Sora opens the gift with a lot of trepidation. Out pops this little miniature mummy that he really doesn’t know what to do with or how to take care of.


I mean you aren’t going to get any major plot points. The episodes will probably each have a small crisis. It is only two episodes in and I don’t see this going any deeper than that, and it isn’t supposed to. It is just going to be a cute anime that makes your heart all warm inside.


Take a break from the winter chill and let your insides melt for a bit. Give your brain a break and bask in the cuteness of a little pudgy mummy. I think I will enjoy these episodes. Happy Watching!